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Friday, October 30th, 2009
9:29 am - HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
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current mood: hyper

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Sunday, October 18th, 2009
2:08 am - 5 ? meme
Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions

[info]blowlotsup gave me:


Ok questions (although christ, is there anything left I don't know about you? - THAT'S SIX GOD DAMNED QUESTIONS CHEATER!):

1. What happened to those gravy pants? - They were washed, eventually. I'm sure they're gone now, though...

2. You had a fight with your brother - what about? - I told him he was a selfish prat and needed to grow up. Truth hurts, apparently.

3. Do you still hear about Jake at all? - Mary has him, his balls were shopped off and he got pudgey. But thats been about.. two years ago. So, old news.

4. Do you still have anything of mine hanging around? - Old love letters. Can't part with them for some reason, though I've tried. But I don't read them. At least not since we split up.

5. Was there anything you wanted to do while I was there that we never did? - Gotten my paperwork sorted out so I could have stayed.

current mood: nostalgic
current music: Darkness - Darren Hayes

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Tuesday, September 29th, 2009
3:04 pm
It was. And sorry, I don't have it.

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Monday, September 28th, 2009
5:34 pm - Every now and then..
I walked down to the park last night
Warm breeze stirring up a soft moonlight
And my mind started drifting to way back when
Yes I do think about you every now and then

The other day I saw a car like you used to drive
I got a funny feeling down deep inside
And for the briefest moment I felt a smile begin
Yes I do think about you every now and then

I love my life and Id never trade
Between what you and me had and the life Ive made
Shes here and shes real, but you were too
And every once in awhile I think about you

I heard a song on the radio just yesterday
The same one you always asked me to play
And when the song was over
I wished theyd played it again
Yes I do think about you every now and then

Ive been layin here all night listenin to the rain
Talkin to my heart tryin to explain
Why sometimes I catch myself
Wondering what might have been
Yes I do think about you every now and then

Every now and then
Every now and then

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Monday, May 25th, 2009
5:08 pm - Happy Birthday
So... Jen just got back from outta town and today is her birthday, too. You'd think it would be a joyous occasion, right?

You'd be wrong.

Every damn time she comes back from being out of town, she jumps me on not doing...something. She nit picks and I am so fucking tired of it. I go into a state of unease every time she comes home. And it sucks because today is her birthday and I wanted it to be special but... yeah.

I am just so so tired....

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Sunday, March 22nd, 2009
4:03 pm - Feeling Down
Haven't posted in a while but I do feel a bit like rambling.

Been having tons of health related issues lately. Between being borderline Diabetic, Nerve damage in my back, high blood pressure and God knows what else, I just feel really down.

And it doesn't help that when ever I get sick, Jen is right there to say, "Get better. We can't afford for you to miss work."

..huh?

I just feel like, yeah, she may care but she cares more about the cash flow then my health. I feel like dropping dead just to spite her.

I don't know.

I haven't been very happy lately with anything.

But who really cares?

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Thursday, December 4th, 2008
5:16 pm - GIMME GIMME


Christmas Gift Toy & MySpace Layouts at pYzam.com


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Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
1:31 pm - Help out please!
I usually don't post stuff like this. But I know the people in this 'contest' and I would like everyone to help out. But sadly, you can only vote once by IP Address. So I'm putting the word out. It has to be done by midnight tonight. Click on the photo with the name Lisa Lester and vote for her. Please. They could really use the help.

Here's the link: http://www.forallthewaysyoucare.com/finalists/

Thanks in advance!

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Friday, February 8th, 2008
1:15 am - Missing You
So its 1 in the morning, I get to be up at 5:30 am and I can't sleep. I always have trouble sleeping when Jen isn't here. I didn't have too much trouble the last couple of nights, maybe because I knew if I needed her, I could call. But now she's in the middle of the ocean on her way to Mexico. No talking til Monday (I think). I just miss my girl and I'm tired. And my poor cat needs attention.. Poor baby.

Well. I'mma try to get some sleep. Just wanted to ramble for a bit.

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, January 15th, 2008
1:31 pm - Be happy you don't live where I do...
...Coz I would run yo ass OVAH!

YES! I (finally) got my driving license today. Well..technically, its only a permit, but I've never had it before and yes. I r teh happeh!.

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Monday, January 14th, 2008
2:55 am - Its 2:53 am. Do you know where your mind is?
Insomnia. Gotta love it. Mine has been getting worse and worse lately. I've had so much on my mind.. I just wish I had someone to talk to. Someone who knew the situation already, who didn't only hear my side. I need answers, advice... anything to get me through this. The only person I can talk to..is involved. And I don't want to go to her about this. I'm worried I'm losing her and I fear this may just push her further away.

I just need some sleep. I want to sleep. And I really don't want to wake up. Crazy as my dream are...as scary as they can be..I'm happy there. Things are more or less simple. I'm tired of the complexity of the situation. I want simple answers. I'm too tired for this any more.

I love you. Why can't that be enough for you?

Why can't I be?

current mood: confused

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Saturday, December 29th, 2007
5:24 pm - Last Post
..Of the year. Maybe. >.>

So, its been a..weird year. I wouldn't really call it a good year, but I'm not sure if it was all bad. Its had its downs but its also had its ups. So..I've had a yo -yo year.

No resolutions. I'm not going to make a promise to myself just to break it. Unless you want to count me taking each day one at a time in order to get my life on track. There is so much I want and need to do this year.

I guess the one thing I need to figure out is me and Jen. I feel like she is building something with me now, simply because I'm the one here. I know she won't hesitate to go for something better should it come along. I just don't know where I'm going to end up when the house sells (not that the market is going any damn place...). She wants to go back home to Illinois. I know I won't be welcome to come along. If I am, I'd be surprised. VERY surprised. I'd just like to know the time and effort I'm spending to build something of a life for myself isn't being wasted. And there are so many days I think it is. And if I ask Jen, it will just send her running scared.

And then there is Mary. ...Too early in the damn morning to even go into that one. Maybe after the first of the year. Maybe never. Dunno.

...Blah. 6:30 in the am and I've gone and depressed myself. Good going, slick.

I want to find a place that is my own. I want to get to a place by this time next year, where I won't have to depend on anyone but myself. I guess I lied. I do have a resolution. I don't need to be wealthy, but I want the security of being able to come home and not wonder when I'll have to move due to either being kicked out by snotty roommates or the house selling.

I want a home.

current mood: contemplative
current music: Diary of Jane (Acoustic) - Breaking Benjamin

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Sunday, December 23rd, 2007
12:35 pm - Merry Christmas...
So yeah. I got an email from Mary yesterday. Wanting me to come to Christmas Dinner today. If I hadn't already had plans to spend Christmas with Jen and her folks, I still wouldn't have gone. HE would have been there.

...I just wish Mary understood why I can't be there. Why I WON'T be there. Ever. But either she can't understand. Or she just flat out won't, simply because she can distort the truth and make out to be the bad guy.

I hate this wound. I hate it so much. And its still as raw and bleeding as it was nearly ten years ago.

Ten years. And nothing has changed. I wanted it to. I want it so much. But after ten years, I know now it will never change. Nothing ever will.

My new year's resolution is to let this go. I won't forgive it. And I'll never forget it. But I can at least attempt to not let it rule my life.

current mood: depressed
current music: Apologize - OneRepublic

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Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
1:27 pm
I Am A: True Neutral Human Ranger (4th Level)


Ability Scores:

Strength-12

Dexterity-14

Constitution-12

Intelligence-13

Wisdom-14

Charisma-13


Alignment:
True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.


Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.


Class:
Rangers are skilled stalkers and hunters who make their home in the woods. Their martial skill is nearly the equal of the fighter, but they lack the latter's dedication to the craft of fighting. Instead, the ranger focuses his skills and training on a specific enemy a type of creature he bears a vengeful grudge against and hunts above all others. Rangers often accept the role of protector, aiding those who live in or travel through the woods. His skills allow him to move quietly and stick to the shadows, especially in natural settings, and he also has special knowledge of certain types of creatures. Finally, an experienced ranger has such a tie to nature that he can actually draw on natural power to cast divine spells, much as a druid does, and like a druid he is often accompanied by animal companions. A ranger's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that he can cast.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus</a></b> (e-mail)




Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (19)
True Neutral ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (24)
Chaotic Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (21)
Lawful Evil ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Neutral Evil ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
Chaotic Evil ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)

Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXXXX (7)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Chaos --- XXXXXXXXX (9)

Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXX (6)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXX (12)
Evil ---- XXXXXX (6)

Race:
Human ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXX (14)
Dwarf ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXXX (6)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Halfling - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Orc - XXXX (4)

Class:
Barbarian - (-8)
Bard ------ (0)
Cleric ---- (-6)
Druid ----- XX (2)
Fighter --- XX (2)
Monk ------ (-15)
Paladin --- (-19)
Ranger ---- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Rogue ----- (-4)
Sorcerer -- (-2)
Wizard ---- (-2)

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Saturday, December 15th, 2007
8:40 pm

Your Score: The Coyote


You scored 44% domestic, 9% gregarious, 67% trickster, and 44% intellect!




Wild, Solitary, Emotional Trickster: you are the Coyote!

Coyote is a complex symbol of humor, cunning, and survival. Coyote is often portrayed as the ‘wise fool’, helping people to see the truth in difficult situations. Coyote medicine is often strongly tied to learning to be adaptable, seeing the humor in even the worst situations, and being able to cope with even the toughest things life can throw at you.



This test categorized you based on four different axes of personality, which were then associated with a different animal. The four axes, as well as all possible results are explained below.



Wild/Domestic: This first axis categorizes you based on how much you are drawn to the outdoors, versus how much you are drawn to civilized situations. Domesticity has many shapes and forms, and varies from the joy of dolphins leaping next to a ship to the steadfast loyalty of a family dog.



Gregarious/Solitary: This axis measures how solitary you are. If you scored high, it means that you enjoy the company of other people, while a low score indicates that you prefer a more solitary lifestyle.



Trickster/Serious: This axis measures how well you line up with conventional trickster archetypes. People who fall into this archetype have a sense of humor and an excitable, highly chaotic streak. Scoring low doesn't mean that you don't have a sense of humor; it just means that you probably don't think dynamite is very funny.



Intellectual/Emotional: This last axis determines whether you are more emotional -- acting based on feelings and instinct, or rational and intelectual -- acting more on thought than on your gut feelings.



WildGregariousTricksterIntellectualThe Hyena
WildGregariousTricksterEmotionalThe Otter
WildGregariousSeriousIntellectualThe Antelope
WildGregariousSeriousEmotionalThe Wolf
WildSolitaryTricksterIntellectualThe Weasel
WildSolitaryTricksterEmotionalThe Coyote
WildSolitarySeriousIntellectualThe Raven
WildSolitarySeriousEmotionalThe Frog
DomesticGregariousTricksterIntellectualThe Fox
DomesticGregariousTricksterEmotionalThe Dolphin
DomesticGregariousSeriousIntellectualThe Horse
DomesticGregariousSeriousEmotionalThe Dog
DomesticSolitaryTricksterIntellectualThe Rat
DomesticSolitaryTricksterEmotionalThe Ferret
DomesticSolitarySeriousIntellectualThe Cat
DomesticSolitarySeriousEmotionalThe Squirrel




Link: The Animal Archetype Test written by crumpetsfortea on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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Thursday, November 29th, 2007
1:00 am
On the twelfth day of Christmas, crazeetyger sent to me...
Twelve animals drumming
Eleven girls piping
Ten tigers a-leaping
Nine tattoos dancing
Eight dachshunds a-milking
Seven dreams a-swimming
Six greatdanes a-laying
Five bi-i-i-ig cats
Four video games
Three blue roses
Two blue tigers
...and an art in a fantasy.
Get your own Twelve Days:

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Thursday, November 22nd, 2007
3:26 am
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In March I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). In January I bought porn for [info]blowlotsup (10 points). Last Friday I gave [info]lyenuv a Dutch Oven (-10 points). Last week I donated bone marrow to [info]tigjah in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In April [info]bayushisan and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points).

Overall, I've been nice (637 points). For Christmas I deserve a Sony Playstation 3!

Sincerely,
crazeetyger

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Monday, November 12th, 2007
1:13 pm
William Shakespeare

Out, damned Jandan! Out, I say!

Which work of Shakespeare was the original quote from?

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Taking a quick break to cool off. Have someone coming over to look at the house today (in like an hour...) and I just found out. I fucking HATE when people do that shit. Why can't people realize that, yeah, we're trying to sell a house but we work and live here so its not always fucking pristine and they should give at least a days fucking warning?

I fucking HATE people. I really do. -_-

And Jen got all excited and decided to blow my phone up to tell me. I know she was excited but she started losing her temper by the fifth call. You'd think if she kept getting my voice mail she'd realize my phone was OFF. So I've pretty much busted her bubble coz I didn't get much sleep and I was tired and I kinna snapped about all the calls. But, working, I've pretty much vented by killing myself. Yay.

My back is fucking killing me and I start my new job in an hour and a half.

Blah blah blah, me me, blah blah blah blah blah, me me me.

I just want to go back to bed. -_-

current mood: aggravated

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Friday, November 2nd, 2007
3:34 pm - Commissions Open
So, thanks to my cat, my bedroom window is now shattered into a million different pieces. Thanks kitty.

I don't know how much a new window runs. And odds are, my roommate's home owner's insurance will cover it. However, I would like to be able to make this up to her.

I need commissions. BADLY. So, for now, I'm doing commissions for $10. There will be 20 slots so yeah, trying to raise $200. The pictures will be CGed with basic coloring. No BGs.

Guys, PLEASE help me out. I need the cash DESPERATELY.


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Please, COMMENT if you are interested.

If you need a reference of what I do, please visit www.songficcer.deviantart.com

current mood: anxious

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Tuesday, October 30th, 2007
1:46 pm - HOWL






What Mythical Beast are you?




Your a werewolf! Werewolf, as you may already know are humans who were once bitten by a werewolf, and know are the undead, who by night turn into a werewolf and hunt out prey. Old folktales say that a werewolf hunts humans, but that isnt nessary. Werewolf may also hunt cattle or other animals that have the misfortune of being near. Werewolfs are just misunderstood though. They are confused because they cant control themselves. One method of curing a werewolf is by feeding it a werewolf hair. But dont try that to your dog. Werewolfs represent night, darkness, curiousity, dishounesty, rage, power, determination, and confusion.
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